4 day work week starts tomorrow! Woo for short weeks!

Not going well but I am not without hope either.

My mom didn’t get approved for social assistance so I’m crunching numbers on our budget for the next month or so.

Brought out the instant pot and made some nice black beans, which I turned into black bean burgers. 😋

Switched from Pop OS to Linux Mint, liking the experience so far. Not as cute as Pop OS was, but I like the interface and the battery alerts and sound effects. So it’s not bad.

It’s great. Excited for Final Fantasy 16. Gonna be a long week, especially since I didn’t get the day off today.

I’ve had a great week, for the most part. Making progress on my mental health through very unconventional means, and feeling happier for a change. Possible job interview this coming Saturday, so we’ll see on that front. Health issues have prevented me from working for a while now, and I’m anxious about returning to the job market.

Been doing some gardening, but I’m so awful at it that even my mint plants are struggling. : /

I’ve been doing a lot of software interview prep, so much that I haven’t done any “real” programming in a minute, which I miss. I don’t really have any ongoing side projects at the moment so I’ve just been coming up with ideas and seeing how far I can scope them out before running into a wall. So far it’s been mostly walls.

I’ve also been working towards getting myself medical coverage so I can get officially diagnosed with ADHD (or whatever I’ve got going on) and hopefully get on some medication. I’ve just been really feeling the struggle these days and I know I can’t put off learning how to live with the way my brain works any longer, especially through the bleak slog that is the job hunt in 2023.

Not the best, but so far from the worst.
Work-wise, it’s slowly starting to fall apart, so I’m also slowly starting to look for something else - I don’t want to jump on the first opportunity I find so I fear it’ll be a long process… We’ll see.

Friends-wise, I’ve made some real connections over the past few weeks/months and I’m really happy with where I’m at. With how socially anxious I am, it hasn’t been been easy… but am I glad I got out of my comfort zone!

Otherwise, it’s Final Fantasy XVI release week and I can’t wait for thursday :)

Pretty good, finally went through with trading in my ridiculous Shelby Mustang ( I loved it! until I had to drive it everyday) on a more adult and less spine wrecking Giulia, still a very fun and cool ride, just much more mature and tame. Also knocked my debt down a significant chunk. I’m shocked at how responsible I’m being, at least as responsible as buying an Italian sports sedan can be. If I made a mistake it wasn’t as big of a mistake as the other guy there buying a brand new Maserati. =)

Also it’s got real wewd on the dash and a cream interior which makes me feel like a fancy boy and I know I can modify it at some point unlike the Shelby, which is something I missed, I love tinkering with my cars.

Also finalized everything for my new gig, excited to get to work there and make some money again.

I am really enjoying Beehaw, it’s a lovely place. I am optimistic for the fediverse stuff, I’ve been having a great time here mostly and other places, too. No shortage of things to read or links to visit.

I have been playing Subnautica obsessively. I feel like I’m making breakthroughs where I was too scared to progress for while. Finally not as scared, it’s weirdly therapeutic.

Also, we finally hit 70 degrees F for the first time this summer this weekend here in Anchorage AK, it’s nice while it lasts. Cool summer feels like a return to normal, though the pessimist in me thinks it’s like false hope, given how we’ve had such weirdly hot summers these last few years.

i have a project at work and the guys i got it from somehow ended up adding like 3 other things to it.

the initial thing was they have a hydraulic valve that only has full open, full close actions. this open close action had no “automatic” speed control of fluid so they want a valve that has proportional control. (open 10%, for example.) somehow, there’s a $25k machine being added in front of the work i was supposed to do so now instead of just adding a valve, i’m adding a valve and adopted a whole automated process on a machine build in 1950, and a controller technology from 1987.

we dont have all the parts. supply chains suck ass. obviously the controller from 1987 is discontinued so im mixing new tech and old tech with half ass communication and there’s another project im finishing for someone that moved up, trying to translate prints from a whole rebuild of something coming up on a july 4th shutdown event and it’s really stressful.

i’m a relatively new tech and there’s a handful of engineers that stare at contractors all day, walk around and try and determine downtime causes and other useless bullshit that can be solved by someone with less of an education, and im supposed to respond to breakdowns, train a new guy, still learn myself, and work on projects that cost $100,000 in parts and labor that these guys should be working on instead of wasting the time they’re doing now.

i love doing what im doing but i literally cant do all the things that’s being expected. thanks for listening.

Could be better. Apartment management sent my lease renewal my way and it’s $200 more expensive. This is the third year in a row that I’ll have had an increase like that.

I can’t afford the new rent, but I can’t afford to move, either.

Work as an RN in a small rural hospital so I see code blues here and there. The other night another RN calls a code blue on a patient that went into sustained vfib/vtach. I was second in to the room and the patient looks like they are seizing. I think their heart has stopped at this point.

I have my gloves on and I am just waiting to see if they are pulseless (couldn’t tell if they were breathing being on bipap already). They all of a sudden start talking to the primary RN and snap out of the dangerous heart rhythm on their own.

That patient was a second or two away from having a 300lb man forcibly compressing their chest to keep their blood pumping.

I’m having (or am going to have) some pretty serious personal issues, so that’s pretty bad.
But on the bright side, I had fun playing DnD on the weekend and I opened my first ever open source PR on Lemmy

Fucking ugh. This week is just ugh. Our landlady has brain cancer (our rent is currently about half what apartments are going for in our city, they doubled during covid) and I’m not sure if she’s passed or not but her adult son has taken over the building with his wife and as of Tuesday have given us notice that at the end of the month we’ll get a letter giving us 60 days to move out (month to month lease). We just had a second child in January. They’re kicking us out with a five month old so they can renovate our apartment and charge double.

So instead of paying a ridiculous amount to rent somewhere again we’re attempting to buy a house, but the housing market up here is super tight and they’re all going way over asking price within days. I don’t know what we’re gonna do if we can’t find something suitable in the next week or two so we have time to get this all done in time to move. We do have really good credit and enough to close, but finding one that isn’t a failed flip or looks like it’s from the 70s or isn’t snatched up immediately is wearing on me.

Everything needs to line up and it’s just not right now. I haven’t cried yet so I guess that’s alright.

I celebrated Juneteenth with a friend by going to the city, visiting a cool history exhibit, getting sandwiches and boba, and walking 11k steps!

Also played in a DnD session and GMed for another one, which was fun.